**Author’s Note** Hi Guys!! I’m going to do a bonus post
either BY the weekend or ON the weekend so stay tuned! I am trying to catch up
to real time so I apologize if I jump a week or two ahead like in this post but
I’ve had some requests to get up to real time so it is kind of necessary. Thank
you all for reading and supporting the blog! If there’s anything you want to
see more/less of, feel free to comment and let me know your opinions I
understand this post may not be as exciting but, our lives can’t be full of
drama all the time ;) Xoxo
After spending the day with Matt, I knew I needed to get
back home to get some stuff done for school and study for midterms. He dropped
me off after we had breakfast and I got to work right away.
I was pretty impressed with how much I was able to get done
when I put my mind to it and didn’t allow myself to get distracted by the usual
suspects (I.e Instagram, Facebook, Pinterest…)
My whole week basically went by like that, with me cocooning
myself in either my room or in the library if any of my roomies were home. It
wasn’t that I wanted to be anti-social or anything but I always had a hard time
concentrating and getting things done when there were people around.
Brian had called me to ask if he would be able to switch weekends
and have me take Bella November 14-16 since the place he was taking Catherine
was full the first weekend he tried. I happily obliged since I knew I wasn’t
going to be going anywhere until Thanksgiving.
My weekend and even the following week just flew by and I
basically alternated between studying, going to class, and trying to see Matt
and my friends. The week after Halloween we only hung out once, between both of
our schedules it was so hectic. The weekend wasn’t much better and I was really
starting to feel myself wear thin.
Before I knew it, it was Wednesday of the week I was taking
Bella from Brian and I felt like I could sleep for a week.
I was just walking into the apartment when my phone buzzed
with a text. It was Katelyn asking me to call her when I had a chance. The
minute I read it I pulled up her contact and hit the dial button. After
everything that happened with her, I treated every text and call as an
emergency. I knew I was being paranoid but I couldn’t shake the memory of
seeing her in the hospital.
“Hey!” She answered cheerfully when she picked up.
I internally sighed with relief hearing her sound so good. “Hey
yourself! How’s it going? I tried Face timing you the other night but it wouldn’t
go through” I said as I started putting my things down in my room and
collapsing on the bed.
“Yeah, sorry about that, the Wi-Fi can be really sporadic
here, I think everyone tends to use it at night so it doesn’t work as well with
so many people on the network apparently.” She explained.
“Gotcha, no worries. So how is everything going up there?” I
asked.
“Good, good. I feel a lot better already. My parents have
been by a lot and have been really supportive. Same with Josh. I can’t believe
how good he’s being to me after the way I treated him.” Her voice cracked at
the end of her sentence and I knew it was a soft spot for her.
“I’m glad to hear! Of course Josh will be supportive; he
only wants the best for you. He’s a smart guy, he knows that you weren’t
yourself when you did those things.” I said in a motherly tone, trying to
comfort her.
“I know it’s just I still feel so guilty about what I put
all you guys through,” I could hear her take a big breath, “But, that’s why I’m
here right? They actually say that it’s really common for people to have a hard
time getting over the guilt they feel for the way they treated their families
while under the influence” She explained.
“That makes sense, recovery doesn’t happen overnight.”
“Yah, exactly. I didn’t think this would be such a big part
of it, you know? Making amends, forgiveness. I have it pretty good compared to
some of the women here. A lady whose been here about a month and a half told me
that her family refuses to come and see her or take her calls…”
“Wow, that’s pretty rough, you would think people would be a
bit more forgiving at least she’s doing the right thing and going to treatment
but I guess everyone has a different back story right?” I said.
“Mhmm, when she told me that I suddenly realized just how
lucky I am to have my family and friends in my life. You guys have been so
supportive and forgiving, I just wish I could make it up to everyone.”
“Hey, you’re getting help and back to your old self, that is
making it up! Trust me Kate, don’t worry about us, right now you just need to focus
on you, and getting better. We are all here and love you” I said, now feeling
myself start to well up.
She sniffled. “Thanks Sar-Bear. Oh god, listen to us - so
sappy! This was meant to be a happy phone call, I have good news!”
I was intrigued, “Oh yeah?
“Okay, I know it’s like 2 weeks away but my therapist is
really happy with me and said I’m making great progress. He said that he thinks
it will be good for me to come home for Thanksgiving weekend to spend some time
with my family! Of course, I won’t be going to any party’s or anything, and my
parents will be watching me like a hawk but if you’re home too we can definitely
hang out. I think your like my only friend who they would actually be
comfortable enough with me seeing right now.” She said excitedly.
“That’s great news!! I’m coming home for Thanksgiving so
that will be perfect. And I am totally okay with sitting out on any parties or
get togethers with the high school friends. I just want to lay low and have a
relaxing time” I said, suddenly way more excited for Thanksgiving.
We chatted some more before saying goodbye. I was so happy
to hear from Kate and she sounded really good. I must have fallen asleep on my
bed after talking on the phone because I woke up to a dark room.
I looked at my phone and saw it was almost 8.
Holy crap a 3 hour
nap? I thought., That should make it
nearly impossible to fall asleep tonight.
Matt had sent me 2 texts while I was napping. I opened up
our chat and immediately smiled at what he sent me.
It was a picture of the corner of his bedroom – he had put
together a big dog bed made with 2 King sized comforters and bought some dog
toys.
Below the picture he had written, Can’t wait till the weekend! Me you and Bella are gunna have a blast ;)
I beamed just thinking of our weekend together and how he
seemed just as excited.
I replied, I can’t
wait too! I’ve barely seen you the last 2 weeks, it’ll be nice spending some
time just the two of us. Well the two of us and a four legged weekend visitor
:)
Shortly after, I heard the door open and walked into the
hallway to see who it was.
“Hey girlllll!” Maddie said as she came in and set her purse
down.
“Hey!” I said trying to match her enthusiasm, but letting a
yawn escape.
She looked at me and giggled, “Easy there grandma it’s like
8 o’clock, where you sleeping?” She asked.
I narrowed my eyes at her jokingly, “I may or may not have
dozed off for a few hours” I replied, while walking into the kitchen.
I had forgotten all about dinner but my stomach was angrily reminding
me that I needed food. I couldn’t be bothered to make anything real so I
grabbed a Mr. Noodles out of the cupboard and turned the kettle on.
Maddi just laughed at my response and said, “Seriously Sar,
you gotta take it easy. I know it’s midterm time and everything but it’s not
going to help if you are draining yourself day in and day out.”
I nodded as I yawned again, I knew she was right. “Yeah I
know, just 2 more days then the weekend. It’ll be relaxing to stay at Matt’s
place all weekend with Bella.”
She squealed, “Oh ya! That’s right, you’re watching that guy’s
dog. You have to bring her over at some point over the weekend. I’ll make sure
Gavin isn’t with me he’s allergic” She said.
I laughed, “Okay I will try and get her over here at some
point. Or you can always come and see her I don’t think we have too much
planned.”
“Deal!” She said with a big smile on her face.
Maddie sat and watched TV with me while I ate quickly and
then took off to her room for the night.
Once I was finished and had found myself feeling like I was
going to fall asleep again, I dragged myself off the couch and into the shower.
I let the hot water pour over me for a good 20 minutes and
then got dressed for bed.
I always found that a long hot shower or bath and pajamas
was one of the best ways to unwind. I could literally feel my muscles loosen and my mind relax a little bit. I didn't have anything in particular to be stressed or worked up about but with school being so busy right now, I was always worried that I was forgetting something.
Once in bed, I quickly sent Matt a goodnight text letting
him know I was going to sleep and would talk to him in the morning.
I plugged my charger into my phone and lay my head back,
allowing my heavy eyes to close. I knew I needed a long sleep, and despite my
long nap, I was able to nod off in a matter of minutes.